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Wages
10.17.05 (10:30 am)   [edit]
Need to work out my wages.......

 

n= my wage per hour   &nb sp;   &nbs p;     ;     d=8   &nbs p;     ;  w= 40     ;       u=7 &nbs p;     ;      p= 4

  =2.70

 

nd  = wage for a day (approx)

nw = Wage for a week = ndu(approx)

nwp=Wage for a month = ndup(approx)

....................SO

 

Wage for a day =   n x d =  £2.70  x  8 =  £21

 

Wage for a week = n x w =  £2.70 x ..............................................

 

Fuck it.

 

A months wages is £432 An when I get £5.05 an hour  I will get £808 a month........but i'll be earning more because I will have a few clients by then. so it might be closer to 1000.
 
Goth? but I'm black
10.16.05 (11:50 am)   [edit]
Ho Hum.... I have loads of things which I have written up on my laptop but I keep forgetting to transfer them over onto this one........ I'll do it another time and make a huge post of them all.

Just letting you know I had a few hours of wanting to become a goth. Admittedly Its gonna be hard to get the Goth look what with me being black 'n' all but I am loving black and red that is worn. I have excellent dress sense when its in my mind so I am sure to think of a great outfit.....but when it comes to what I can afford I tend to just buy something cheap.

So if anyone is willing to donate a full goth outfit to me I would be much obliged................. gonna watch more Naruto............... omg a Black, Bi, Goth, Anime Geek. WOW i am SO ORIGINAL.

(if I add the goth that is)
 
Pool
10.15.05 (9:06 am)   [edit]
*Yawns* SO where do I begin? I can't remember the last thing I wrote here so I guess I'm Just gonna type all of the things that are in my mind at the moment. Well, the first thing is that I am absolutely shattered. Going to work nearly every single day is tiring not to mention the fact that I work shit hours but hey, at least I like my work, so it's bearable.

I have become such a Naruto Whore recently. I am already up to the 100th episode which is really quite sad when you consider that I only started watching it two weeks ago. *Sighs* yep.....I'm Sad. Feeling abit lonely too but thats just cos I havn't seen a soul for ages. Working has drained me of my normally bouncy energy and left me running on fumes. I would go to sleep now and just get the day over and done with but its way to early.

Eddie Murphy is a hilarious comedian but a really crap singer.

I need to find the ONE (O.O) ........ or at least a one. Sadly the girl which I really Liked at work wasn't there today. I think she's ill. I don't want anything do do with her in that way.........but she was very nice. Filled up a few emotion quota which hadn't been filled for a while.

done for now...............................................blargh
 
I Don't Know What To Call This
10.10.05 (12:29 pm)   [edit]
 Just listened to "Rock Lobster" by B-52's. For the most part I hate it. The only parts I like are the begining bit when it gets repeated and the bit where they say everyone was wearing matching towels..............dear GOD I am so bored. I finished the college work that was meant to last me an entire week in an hour, filed my nails so that they don't feel bad on the clients head when I am washing their hair, Tweezed the unsightly hairs from my face and left the nice ones and many other things. I don't think I am gonna last long with this making myself stay in ma larkey *pretends its his choice*. Oh dear...... I just refered to myself in the third person then.....or does that one pass as okay?

 

Right now I am listening to "Wind" by Akeboshi. Its sang in english but it has an anime sound to it. Its quite quickly reached the group of the feel good/ feel bad songs. They are the ones which either make you cry or make you wanna dance around like a loon on loony juice. Recently its just fitted in with my moods so well so its been a regular on WMP.

 

A list of songs that I have fallen in and out of love with are.....;

 

Wind by Akeboshi (in)

Be yourself by Audioslave (in)

Romeo by Basement Jaxx (out)

King of The Dancehall by Beenie Man (in)

Everytime by Britney (in)

Trouble by Coldplay (in)

Down With The Sickness by Disturbed (in)

Don't Let Go by En Vogue (in)

Call On Me by Eric Prydz (out)

Going Under By Evanescence(in)

Nothing Else Matters by Metallica (in)

 

As you can seem there are alot of ins and only a few outs.......thats because its preety much all of the others that I hate right now and rather than type loads I found it easier just to type my most faves of this moment.

 

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I just got ignored........... that was nice. I don't feel hurt in the slightest. Why in the world would I have cause to be paranoid. Oh no......if I was then its all MY fault. God somethimes I just feel that thw whole world isn't worth my time. I'm starting to agree with the emos right now.......... life is shit and we are all just corpses from the day we are born. Just shuffling around dying and living at the same time till eventually, one way or another, dying overtakes living and you just cease.

 

My god you'd think I had gone out and stabbed someone or pushed someone to suicide the way the people I've talked to today have treated me. The exceptions so far are Fish and Charlie but the rest of you can go fuck yourselves.

 

For a few others that are reading this I am only being so bitchy about them because I know they don't read this.....and because I don't really mean it. I never mean the mean things I say. The are just hollow and empty words which carry nothing but a brief bit of charged emotion in them.

 

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One thing that I know I would really like would for a psychologist to read my blogs and give me an analysis of whateva they find out and stuff.

 

 

NOTE: I'm only Bitchy cos I'm tired and I'm listening to depressing music right now.
 
College Sucks.....But Other Things Don't
10.10.05 (9:53 am)   [edit]
Eugh, Today has been abit shit. Had to go to colleg which is quickly becoming crapper and crapper. Well.....it wasn't too bad today...but i think thats because I left for a few hours in that gap of nothingness in my schedule to get my hair cut. I think she did an okay job of it althought Gale was alot better. When she did it I was like......wow.....but with this one i was only like Yeah, thats great.

Grrrr at Tblog. Damn it and it constant "We are just fixing some errors" screen. If they were actually fixing those errors then there wouldn't be so many automated porn blogs. T blog is a pile of poo but people prefer how my blog looks on there. That means that as a result I have lost a group of my devoted readers........oh well.

I wanna do something but everything feels abit weird right now so I'm just gonna wait it out for a few more days. Its gonna be hard because I've already had a week of not seeing anyone ( plus that badness -.-) so I am gonna be in mega friends withdrawal by the end of them.

The net went of then.... I was about to publish this entry too. If it had ended up deleted I would have gone mad and just gone to my room to sulk for abit.

I'm listening to Sonarta Artica right now. So far I have only just listened to a tiny but of each song just so I can tell fish what I thought of them but now that I am listeing to them all the way through I am really starting to like them. Its strange though because as I seem to start liking things, other things get pushed out. The only thing that has really stuck with me is Placebo....but they got me through the rough times so they will probably be one of things that I'll dig out when I am old and grey. "Ay up kids.....come around ere an ave a gsmmer at my moosic see-Dees".

OH well, all the people I wanted to talk to have gone offline so I think I might do too.......oooh paranoid thoughts creeping into head....no no ....ignore them and just watch tv.
 
Tuesday
10.04.05 (10:22 am)   [edit]
Arrgh, parents are arguing. I have forgotten what it was about because they keep going in circles. I can't be bothered to deal with them now......they were less than charming when I got home so I real don't feel like clearing anything up...........for a few minutes at least.

 

Okay, so today was my first proper day at Daniel Grays and I am still loving it. Today I got tips from two people, which really made me smile as I left to go home. I also practiced applying colours and blow drying. Nic (Nicola), has decided that shes gonna stat me off on learning the most common things that are done so that I can be much more of a help around the place.

 

I sent Tom a text cos I think he's in a mood with me. I can't remember why so I can't say sorry which makes things all iggledy. I'm all paranoid cos he hasn't replied yet either......... he might be bitching about me (T_T)
 
I'm back :D
10.03.05 (5:51 am)   [edit]
This was originally typed in the far more reliable blog. I am now doing both because oodles of people don't like the other one......cos its less personal.

 

Where to begin?

Methinks I'll start off by saying that last night was fun. Well.....kinda. Went to the pub quiz and had a few drinks..... A total of 6 I do believe. Then I told myself no more because I could feel the early parts of drunkenness.
Told tom which people thought he was gay and why but that was just to wind him up.

oh, and I've become addicted to a new cartoon. Naruto is the name of it and ninjas is the aim of it. I've already learnt most of the words to the end song and a few of the words to the beginning one (which is all in Japanese).

Hmmmmmm, this shall be cut and pasted into both my blogs because alot of people prefer the other one.
 
BLOG CHANGE
09.11.05 (11:48 am)   [edit]

Just so I know who actually knows that I have changed where my blog is  please cab you leave a comment on the newest enrty of mine......it needn't be a big thing. all you really need to do is leave your name.


I'm gonna let it allow anonymous comments so you won't have to join up to say something to me.


just go to this link to get to my new blog.......    --------> http://jaylivered.blogspot.com/" title="http://jaylivered.blogspot.com/" target="_blank"http://jaylivered.blogspot.co...

 
Changing Blog site
09.10.05 (3:10 pm)   [edit]

   I am tired of how slow this thing is and how glitchy it is too so I have made a new address at a diff place.


   you can find it at http://jaylivered.blogspot.com/" title="http://jaylivered.blogspot.com/" target="_blank"http://jaylivered.blogspot.co... 


Hope i remain as enjoyable as ever :D :D

 
REALLY HAPPY......but you may not realise
09.09.05 (5:28 pm)   [edit]

   I forgot to have a shower so I'll just have one in the morning. I am sure someone noticed when I went out but at the time I was having to much fun to care..... I'm also too tired to care. As I said, or I think I said earlier, I spent the last two nights at Tom's house. NO..... I know what you are thinking and NO. I'm not tired for those reasons. I'm tired because 1) I always find it hard to get to sleep in a different place the first few times and 2) Tom is a restless sleeper. I can handle loud noises easily; Living with 3 younger siblings does that to you....its just the little noises that keep me awake.


   In the time that I have lived here have stayed over at many a friends house and one thing I have noticed is that you all sleep so differently. Some curl up into balls, some make themselves their own little cocoon out of their blanket......thought I'd just type that now. It had just popped into my head so I thought, "why not just type it?".


    Btw.... DAY 7 . ....all I can say is that Abstinence sucks (did I spell that right?). I'm started to have the weird sex dreams again. My dreams are weird enough without there suddenly being a weird sexual undertone. The last thing I need is to be on my dreamboat only to float past an animated cartoon duck(think of Tom and jerry meets South Park) giving it to the to that hot woman from desperate housewives.


   I finished a whole side of pork....or whatever it was not so long ago. Mum had cooked it and said that I could eat it all. I'm thinking that she had planned on cooking a nice meal but then the torchlight put a halt to her planning.


   The torchlight thing was GREAT. I went with Yasmin's "Crew" *giggles to self* and Lindy Lyndz. Their weird crazyness made me laugh. I hadn't planned on going out at all 'cos I'm so tired but Yasmin rang the doorbell and insisted I go out with them. You all know what I'm like so it was obvious I would cave in. The only times that I can manage a no is when I am really tired or I have something else that really needs doing.


   Last bit now, promise you. On my way home tonight I bumped into Braddy. He was walking to passions on his own. Normally I wouldn't mind talking to him but I was SO sleepy I just wanted to get home, It was then that I realised how utterly boring he can be. 3 times I tried to breakt the conversation with a "I really must get going" but gosh darnt it....I can't help being chatty to people. He invited me somewhere on the monday, some barn he's renting for a party, but I know I won't be see him then. I told him I didn't know what my number was so if he wanted to set anything up that he should ask someone we both know. I didn't get a guilty pang then because I genuinely don't know my number and because I didn't really think he wanted me to go. It had probaly just been a reflex asking.


   Sash's 18th on the 18th. I think I'll probably go. The worrying thought is that this may be the only 18th I go to this year because ALL of my friend have gone and left kirkbie so there are no links left. I'm not sure I care though cos it'll just be a bunch of jock parties. I'll have college 18ths to go to anyway methinks......although they may just be a bunch of fags and hags.


   I am surprisingly happy right now. The stress of my parental divorce and the horror of HUGE change ( leaving kirkbie...and such ) don't seem to bother me at all right now. I'm on an untouchable pedastal of happiness right now which nothing can touch. Its surprising what seeing a few people can do to me :D . Almost everyone that I have seen since wednesday have made me SO happy. I think I'll just end my blog now, get a drink and go to bed.


   Infact I shall. NN all......... I love you all :D :wink: :D :wink:  :D  

 
Out and about.....at Tom's
09.09.05 (3:46 am)   [edit]

   Just got back in just now. Where have you been I hear you ask.......well now boys and girls.......if I told you....that would be telling.


    Okay, okay, I'll tell you. Wednesday night Tom rang me and invited me round to his for a little get together he was having. All together I think that 7 people were there. There was Tom, Me, Dan W, Briget, Alan, Fish and Ben. OH and boothy too. I had fun despite some animosity that my highly developed emo senses were picking up. I took half a bottle of scrumpy (appley cider juice.......yukksomes but 7.5% alc). Crashed at Tom's. Woke up the next day with a stonking great hangover.


   The next day(thursday), Tom and I went to Asda to get some some food cos his fridge had been cleared out. We stopped at my house for 5 mins whilst I changed my bear sodden shirt for some clean ones. I grabbed some ready meals aswell. Hung out with Tom all day and crashed at his house again. Overall it was great.


   .....gonna go have a shower cos I feel grimey....... i'll give you more details later


  

 
late
09.06.05 (1:38 pm)   [edit]
    I think I'm going to die of bordom...... I hate late nights
 
eeeep
09.06.05 (12:21 pm)   [edit]
   NO!!!! ..........no porn. too much of a temptation......hand nearly started but then I realised wht might of happened......I'm strong!! I can do this
 
Celibacy mch 2
09.06.05 (12:01 pm)   [edit]
   I've just decided that I can look at porn whilst on my celibacy. I'm just not allowed to "go with the moment". For each time that I look but don't go I am allowed a super fattening treat. :D :D :D
 
Laptopy oooohda lay
09.06.05 (11:48 am)   [edit]

    21:23


 


   Right now I am watching this program this program on BB2. "No Sex please, we are teenagers". It’s SO FUNNY. So far its just a bunch of ugly teenagers that wouldn't have got any sex and a gay guy that says he's not gonna have sex with girls because its wrong. I was sat there thinking "you are so gay........just admit it" *tries to figure out what the fast beeping noise then realizes it’s his Gaydar*.


 


   It's been SO LONG since I last got drunk. I think that's why I keep feeling rotten. As soon as I start getting paid for my placement at Eden I am gonna go get so drunk that I pass out. I have to have a few drunken nights over here; I have been to other peoples and got drunk so I need to have people round here. Mark is going to be taking the kids away again during the half-term. Mum will be here with me but I should be able to get her to go somewhere.....maybe even get her to go out with her mates for abit of drunkenness. She would probably be able to bunk at her mates for a few nights too.


 


   OMG....I'm roasting in here. The lights are on so each time I lean forward hot white light shines on my head. It’s just like those lights that are used to keep food warm or to hatch eggs.

 
Moosic Lyrics........on the laptop
09.06.05 (11:46 am)   [edit]

   This song makes me go into a weird BBW mode. If you can name which song it is then you shall receive my eternal worship and adoration. This is such a brilliant song. I love it with all of my insides.


 


Oooh, yeah


Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh


Hey, yeah, hey, yeah


 


What's it gonna be?


'Cause I can't pretend


Don't you wanna be more than friends?


Hold me tight and don't let go


Don't let go


You have the right to lose control


Don't let go


 


I often tell myself


That we could be more that just friends


I know you think that if we move too soon


It would all end


I live in misery when you're not around


And I won't be satisfied


Till we've taken those Vows


 


There'll be some lovemaking


Heart breaking, soul shaking


Love, oooh aah


Lovemaking, heart breaking


Soul shaking


 


What's it gonna be?


'Cause I can't pretend


Don't you wanna be more than friends?


Hold me tight and don't let go


Don't let go


You have the right to lose control


Don't let go


 


I often fantasize the stars above, oh, a chill


They know my heart and speak to yours


Like only lovers do
If I could wear your clothes


I'd pretend I was you, and lose control


 


There'll be some lovemaking


Heart breaking, soul shaking


Love, oooh aah


Lovemaking, heart breaking


Soul shaking


 


What's it gonna be?


'Cause I can't pretend


Don't you wanna be more than friends?


Hold me tight and don't let go


Don't let go


You have the right to lose control


Don't let go


 


Running in and out my life


Has got me so confused


You gotta make a sacrifice


Somebody's gotta chose


We can make it if we try


For the sake of you and I


Together we can make it right


 


Whats it gonna be?


Can't keep running in and out of my life


Out of my, out of my life


More than friends, oh, oh, oh


Hold me tight and don't let go


Don't let go


You've got the right to lose control


You've got the right


I said you've got the right to lose control


Yeah, yeah, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh


 


Don't break up 'cause I can't take it


What's it gonna be?


'Cause I can't pretend


Don't you wanna be more than friends?


Hold me tight and don't let go


Don't let go


You have the right to lose control


Don't let go


 


Don't let go     (fade out)

 
On the laptop
09.06.05 (11:44 am)   [edit]

18:48


 


   *Sighs a deep sigh* Just my luck. I start talking to someone and the internet goes off.....or should I say mum restarted it so I know have to wait for it to auto-fix itself. I'm not really that bothered....It's just that I had just started talking to Ben. We'd only just started the conversation and were part way into the "how are you's" when it went.


 


   Today has been a really shit day. It wasn’t as boring as yesterday but it was still really shit. I was gonna ring Tom, I'd even said I would but then Tyler told me not to. (Tyler is that voice that puts doubt in me.....and other such emotions). I thought I best give him a name seeing as I always think of him........*growls at Tyler*.


 


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19:10


 


   Right now I am watching the News *yawns at self* They are telling me about the flooding and devastation in New Orleans. I feel bad for all the people there but I'm not sure I really.......how do I put this....care. I mean it’s all so far away and there are so many natural disasters, acts of terrorism, and fears of super diseases that I think I have lost that bit of me that actually paid it any attention. omg....I'm a monster of a person to think that. I'm just gonna change the channel and hope there is something nicer on.


 


   Nope.....there is nothing for me to watch. Here, I'll show you what’s on right now? .....nothing but mind numbingly boring stuff.


 


BBC 1 = Watchdog (Lets me know bout terrible companies and the bad things they    & nbsp;   &n bsp;     


    & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p;     ;        have been doing)
BBC 2 = Light Fantastic (Boring program telling me about light)


 


ITV 1 = Emmerdale (its okay sometimes but the people on it get under my skin)


 


Channel 4 = News (YAWN.......more tales of the terrible things that ppl are doing to


    & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p;     ;        other people and how the world is pretty much fucked)


 


   Normally I would just go to sleep but I can't because I have to get my sleep patterns fixed to ordinary times instead of sleep all day and awake all night.


 


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19:30


 


    Right now I am regretting lending Tom my favorite Xbox games. I think the reason I am so bored is because I don't have them to play with. I have gone off "Yahooing" with other people so I must have been on the Xbox a lot more. I think that I'm gonna have to dig out my GBA.

 
Six Thirty
09.06.05 (7:12 am)   [edit]

   I feel so much better now. The last time I blogged I felt like I would moider somone. Parents are really pissing me off now. ARRRGH. Before I was at a 7 for anger and frustration but now i'm at about a 3. Which is still pretty high because I am never angry....well almost never. The highest amount of anger i get to is normally just a one. I tend to feel all of the other many emotions instead.....you know.....bla.


   Gonna go eat my ready meal now

 
Dar!
09.06.05 (3:55 am)   [edit]
   I don't wanna see anyone for a few days.....I'm in a terrible mood and I know for a fact that I will end up taking it out on someone.
 
Update: Day 4
09.06.05 (3:51 am)   [edit]
Day 4
Hornyness (at the mo): 2
Sexual frustration: 0

   So far its very easy going. no effort required yet to stop the urges......mainly because there have been no urges. I will be doing this twice a day...the first shall be how I am at the time of doing the entry. The second shall be an average of the day.
 
Celibacy
09.05.05 (2:17 pm)   [edit]

 I'm gonna be celibate .........no sex, no wanking........not even light touching. Well, apart from what can't be helped like when you wake up with your hand where it shouldn't. I' hoping this will make me much happier . I could start today but the last time I even touched myself was Saturday morning at like 1am. Right now its Tuesday at 1:30am.....I've been 3 days.


   This is gonna be SO TOUGH.......harder than ramadan......cos now its not going to be for just a month......its gonna be til........I'm 18.....at the least. I better not pop.

 
FAT
09.05.05 (1:31 pm)   [edit]

I'm such a fucking pig. Ive eaten 2 magnums, a fab and 2 minc choc cones. I'm on my third now......


 


  

 
Comatose
09.05.05 (12:29 pm)   [edit]

   Devdas is on Tv tonight. I remember many a lonely hour I spent watching it over and over again.............. It's time to hit the icecream.......


   I weigh more than Fishwick.


 *Dies* .......I think I die to much in my blog. *slips into a self-induced comatose state by overdosing on Mint choc chip icecream* If there are no tubs of ice cream them me thinks I might just "Irish up" the ice lollies or summit.

 
When I was Bored
09.05.05 (12:15 pm)   [edit]

   OH dear god. I am so unfathomably bored. Today seems to have moved along so slowly that every second has been a minute and every minute has been like an hour. Right now I am sat up in my room typing this. No, I know what your thinking but I haven’t got a computer in here now. I'm typing this up on my laptop. Well, it's not my laptop, it’s my mums but the amount of time that I am on it and she isn't it might as well be mine. I think she's forgotten that it’s up in my room. She must have because normally when I put something up in my room it doesn't stay up here much longer than a week.....Unless she is trying to buy me with it. If she is then it’s a very poor attempt because this thing is a pile of shit. Besides, she doesn't need to buy me, I'm automatically on her side during this divorce whether I like it or not. I just know I'm going to be stuck with my family for much longer than I'd like. I remember planning to move out but that’s as good as dead now.


 


   Right now I am listening to Missy Elliot. It certainly does feel different listening to her instead of my usual Metallica, Dream Theater, DragonForce and NightWish. It almost feels like a distant memory. So distant in fact that when I do remember it I swear it could just be a minor case of de ja vu........ What the hell am I on about!? I think I should have a lay down or something..........well, not lay down. I'm already lying down on my bed.......but I'm sure to get my idea.


 


   I've just changed the way I am lying down but all that I have managed to do is squish my manly parts against the zipper of my jeans and give myself a dead leg. The "parts to zipper" moment was quite worrying for a few seconds because I’ve just had a shower and had decided to "free ball" it. I'd forgotten how comfortable it can feel, especially seeing as my room is like an oven tonight.  I'm roasting summit awful right now and the lights aren’t even on. If they had been on I no doubt would be dead by now from dehydration or some other heat related ailment.


 


   OH! I forgot to mention in my blog earlier why I wasn't at college today. The short version is that I don't need to go in this week because I am doing an apprenticeship. The long version involves me telling you about me walking up to the college. I'll just skim the highlights of it though so you know just what, very few, interesting things have happened to me. Well, on the way to college I saw the GORGEGOUS Aimee Roberts on her way to school. We had a brief chat then went our separate ways but I couldn't resist checking her out as she walked away.......WOW.


 


   I bet she has really ugly parents though. A lot of the people that I think are hot have ugly parents. I feel sorry for them because they will end up looking like their parents. If you ever want to know what you gf/bf are going to look like when they get older then just look at their parents.


 


   I keep reminding myself that I'm going to go bald when I'm older. Damn genetics. Nearly every single male in my family is bald. The only ones that aren’t bald are either too young for it to have set in yet or they have married into the family. I don't know what I'm going to do when I lose my hair. I'm going to have to have one of those terrible baldish hairstyles that nearly all black models seem to have. I hate it SO MUCH. The only things I hate more are those dread that stick to people heads (like Ali from Holyoake’s (how do you spell it?)) and Afros. I only very rarely think people look good in them and they are usually the people that look good no matter what hairstyle they have. A good example is Halle Berre. So far I have only met one person that doesn’t fancy the pants off her......but he’s gay so :P.


 


   Mum just came in. I am glad to see that they are finally knocking then waiting for me to reply before they enter. I have found that the only way I can get them to listen to what I say is to shout at them. Childish I know...but if that’s the easiest way to get them to listen then so be it.


 


   I am starting to feel really shit right now. Even watching the polar bear on TV eat that seal isn’t making me laugh. Creepy I know but I tend to laugh at the scariest things when I am on my own. It's not because I am a psychopath or anything.....that doesn’t affect my sense of humor. It’s because I have a habit of giving things their own little voices in my head. I'd decided that the polar bear should sound French and to repeat himself. The seal was given a very "blond" voice. I sometimes do that with real people as well. But that’s only when I feel either really crappy or when they are talking about something which I don't understand, am not a part of or don't want to be a part of.


 


   I would make such a brilliant evil wizard. I figure that deep down I am pretty power hungry because I have "those empty spaces that fill me up with holes" inside me....so it makes sense. The internet tarot lady said that I would either live a life a great emotional hardship involving unrequited love or I would reach new heights giving me power over a great many people. I'm not sure I should believe her though because I met her in a chat room.


 


   I'm going to finish this now. I have been bored of my own typing for at least 10 mins now so you must have stopped reading ages ago........god I am so boring. *dies*.......don't wake me.....just leave my corpse there. This corpse can't be bothered to read through it either so I hope the mistakes weren’t too big.

 
Tblog is just taking the piss now
09.05.05 (4:11 am)   [edit]

HOLY CRAP ON A FUCKING STICK!!!!!


I just did a HUGE ENTRY and Tblog just FUCKED IT UP. ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRG H. That took me almost an hour to do!!!! You better fucking start fixing it or I'm going round to where you live and breaking some skulls.


   Oh for christs sake!!! I was so open and....arrrrgh


ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY MONKEY.

 
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